Let me tell you a story_my story. So where should I start? hmm. I guess let me introduce myself first. I am Renz and this story begins when one day I bumped a young lady. She was crying. I am sure of that, she bow her head and apologize. I was shocked. What should I do? Then I just gave her my handkerchief. Its the least I can do to lighten her burden. I guess she's having a big problem. I just smile at her and walked away. That girl, shes..shes pretty. I bet when she smile she is prettier. I hope she'll be fine.
I transferred to a new school in the middle of the semester. I just feel like I need time to be alone. To be independent, to see the real world. Away from my parents who disgust me as their son, away from the people who don't understand me. And life has really its own surprises because I never expect I will meet the person who will change my view in life. Someone who will make me realize the beauty of life.
She's been my seatmate since I transferred to this new school. She is Michelle. And she was the same girl who was crying and accidentally bumped me. Michelle is pretty. She's kind, gentle, she's simple. I can get along with her and it's her who I first told the story of my life. She's different from others, she listens to me, she understands me, she never judge me from my mistakes, she always believes in me and maybe those are just few of the reasons why I liked her and i'm too coward to tell her that and honestly I hate myself for being too coward. I regret not telling her.
She had a Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease. Before Michelle went to the States she leaves me a letter and after reading the letter I couldn't stop myself from crying. All this time we had spent together, she also feel the same way. And if I weren't that coward, we would've been more happy together. In my mind I was always praying "God please. Don't take that girl I love.Please, she's the only person who taught me how to appreciate life and she's the girl who taught me how to pray and believes in you. Michelle is the only person I love and I will always love her. Please don't take her away."
I followed her in States. My heart can't bear it. I want to fight with her. I don't want her to fight this battle alone. I want to take all my chances. I want to make more happy memories with Michelle. This time I wont be a coward. We have hopes that we can get through this. But the battle wasn't that easy. The roads are rocky.Hereditary Spinocerebellar Degeneration Disease has no cure. Days passed, weeks went on, months went by, Michelle and I never give up. We fight. Michelle could not walk but I became his feet, she can hardly write, speak and eat. And every time I see her having a hard time I couldn't help myself but cry. I wish it was me. Why do she needs to suffer this much? She doesn't deserve this. She doesn't deserve all of this.
Then one day Michelle saw me bewail. At that time her ability to speak was gone. I was near her, she was lying in the hospital bed. I couldn't hold it anyone. I cried and cried. I was like a little kid who lost his favorite toy. I was angry why it has to be this way. I don't want to see the girl I love suffer like this. Then suddenly Michelle try her best effort to touch my face and she smiles at me. A smile so pure like everything was okay.
Before the time Michelle's ability to write was gone she use to write everyday especially in her free time and she would not even let me read all her write ups. Michelle taught me lots of things. Things like acceptance, forgiving, believing above, having faith and hope and importantly she taught me how to love wholeheartedly. Michelle live a humbly life, she never regret every decision she made that leads to me. She learns to accept things and how they are.She love me and I love her back.
I love her and I will always will. She is always in my heart. I love you Michelle. Eternity and beyond. I love you.
Truly yours,
Renz
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