Letter

Dear Readers,

                  Let me share my once upon a time with you. It started from a simple smile. Back then he is absolutely a complete stranger to me. I don't know him but things change when one day I ran away crying but that day became an important day of my life. On that day I ran crying never mind the people around me. On that moment all I want was to disappear. When my vision got blurred because of my tears, someone bumped me. After a moment, I bow my head and apologize. I don't want anybody see me cry, as I was about to walk away the guy offer me handkerchief. To my surprise I look up to that guy, then in no where he simply smile at me_a weak smile and he give me the hanky and walk away.

                Days after, as I was sitting in our class and looking at the window, our adviser introduce a new student. I didn't listen to what they are saying then someone just sat beside me. And to my surprise the new kid was the same guy who gave me a hanky!

               His name was Renz. He even remember that day when he first saw me. We became friends_close friends. Small world isn't it? And honestly after few months we spent together, I had this weird feeling for him. I haven't feel this way. And I like what I feel for him. I..I just don't have the courage to tell him personally.

             So this is the reason why I wrote a letter to you Renz. To tell you that I'm really happy that I meet a person like you. You're someone who can cheer me up and make me smile. I like you Renz and I'm sorry I can't tell you this personally. By the time you read this letter, I'm already in the States. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you. I really just don't want to say goodbye.

        That day when you saw me crying, the doctor told me that I have a spinocerebellar degeneration disease_a disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates and later on I cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. I often wonder why this disease choose me. Am I that bad? I don't have the reason to fight this. What is the point of living for me? Do I still have a future? Those questions always stay at my mind. Life is so unfair. But also on that same day I found that reason to fight. I was wrong. Life is not that unfair because I have found you. I now have the reason to fight and I will hold onto that reason. I actually don't know what you feel for me or what will you're reaction be after reading this but one thing i'm sure of my heart choose you. And I'm grateful for everything. I'm happy with our friendship. Thank you Renz.. Thank you for giving me a reason to fight this. Maybe later on I can't speak to you about everything but let me tell you this I will always treasure in my heart every moments I have with you. Maybe we might not see each other again but I hope I can still see you in the future..I hope I can love you in the future.. I hope fate give me a chance to love you. Please don't feel burden about this. That day when we first meet and you smile at me, that smile, I will always remember that in my heart and cherish it.

                                         Truly yours,

                                            Michelle.