I feel extremely lame. Just because I’m watching an American
show ‘Awkward’ where the protagonist who is in High School loves to write her
daily dilemmas in her blog encourage me to open the tab and write. Yes, it’s
been a while since I wrote something. I don’t know my passion in writing
just... Okay, it wasn't gone but maybe, just maybe I lost my motivation.
Yes, my life is full of crapness and up until now, it is
still the same.
Everyday I still got all those same crap I have. Maybe the good
thing that only happened was, I graduated High School. Okay scratch that out...
Now, to be truthful I don’t think graduating High School was good (well, I
might say it’s good that I won’t be facing any High School dramas) because
preparing for College is gad damn HARD! Hard in a sense that I’m
utterly confused to choose where I want to spend another hell.
I’m confused to choose between a university where I want
because of the name or the university where my friends are there and the degree
program I want is available. How can you choose between two things that
basically dictates your future? How can you be a hundred percent sure that when
you choose, you choose the right one?
Each choice has its points for me to remember and consider.
I want to open up this problem to someone who can give me advice, who can
listen to me but every time I try, it only leads to two things. First, they are
not interested to listen and second, I’m afraid to find an answer because
inside, I’m scared. Frighten to make a wrong decision that can ruin my future.
